In the bedroom

My husband and I did the weirdest thing in bed a few weeks ago: we both slept in it at the same time. Except when out of town, we haven’t done that since late 2005. It was then that I was pregnant and up peeing and/or being nauseous at night, and so he moved into what was to become the nursery. Then after the baby was born, he moved back into the master bedroom and I moved to the twin bed in the nursery. A few months ago, annoyed at how my trips to the bathroom at night disturbed the baby, I moved into the guest room, next to her room, onto a hard and lumpy futon one can feel the frame bars through.

Throughout all this I made a few attempts to move back into the master bedroom, but my husband always breathed obnoxiously or tried to cuddle, which made me too hot, or I had to move him out of the way so I could get up to pee, or whatever, and so it never worked out. But finally it did, and I slept the whole night with him. It wasn’t bad. But I haven’t been able to do it since. I’ve slept half-nights there occasionally, either starting out there or moving there after I get up to pee, but it just doesn’t work well for me. I sleep poorly. He sleeps much better when I’m there and I know he would like me to sleep there all the time, but I just can’t so far. Still, I get a little lonely in my uncomfortable, cold little bed. How can I move back into the master bedroom?